這個世界上根本就不存在所謂面對離別的方式。 —桂勤相 ‘’There doesn’t exist a class teach us how to face leaving.’’ — Gye Geun-sang
哈囉，掰掰，我是鬼媽媽! Hi, bye,Mama!
韓劇感想 Thoughts after watching
第14集「不是你的錯」，回憶到鋼和在瑜理過世後，因為內疚無法進手術室開刀，甚至在嘗試進手術室觀刀時忍不住悲傷衝出手術室，更被醫院行政警告革職。他一直沉浸在當年堅持開一床急刀而切斷所有通訊、鎖住手術室的門，卻因為這樣在瑜理滿身是血地被送進急診室時完全收不到消息，錯失決定保媽媽還是保胎兒的時刻，在鋼和成功救回患者後，迎來的卻是妻子的屍體。有一幕非常心酸，便是鋼和收到了患者家屬的感謝花束，謝謝鋼和救回他們的摯愛，但鋼和卻因為這場手術，失去摯愛。
而現在瑜裡復活了，她跑去鋼和每次衝出手術室後去逃避自己的樓梯間緊緊抱住他，安慰他說:不是你的錯，因為這些年鋼和一直覺得自己沒有資格變好、沒有資格走出害死妻子的陰影，才活在愧疚與自責中。
當摯愛離開時大家總是習慣自責，因為好似不自責就沒有資格繼續活著，但我相信離開的人不會願意看到我們自己責怪處罰自己，若是像劇中所述，真的可以繼續留在人世間，我認為離開的他們也是會向瑜理一樣難過的。我不希望自己比孩子先走，也不希望失去最愛，但我們只有讓自己越來越強大，強大到不用靠著自責也能在沒有摯愛的世界過活。
The last one I want to share is the 14th episode ‘’It’s not your fault’’. Kang-hwa blamed himself and immersed in the great grief of Yu-ri’s leaving, so he could not perform any surgery. Moreover, he was once rushed out of the operating room when he tried to observe the surgery. That also made him be warned to be unemployed by the administration of the hospital.
While Kang-hwa was insisted to operate an emergent surgery the day Yu-ri was hit by a car and sent to the emergency room coincidentaly. Kang-hwa regretted for his insistence that he cut off all communication facility and locked the operating room. Hence, he had missed the key time to decide whether save the mother. In the end, he saw his beloved wife’s body after finishing the surgery successfully.
There once appeared a sorrow scene: Kang-hwa received a gift from the patient’s family in order to appreciate him that saved their lover while Kang-hwa lost his lover whereas because of this surgery. Back to know, as Yu-ri was revival, she hugged Kang-hwa to comfort him with whisper ‘’it’s not your fault’’.
We often blame ourselves for responsibilities as a way to alleviate our sadness. But those leavers might not want to see our disappointment if there really exist spirits like the drama. I don’t want to leave my child when he or she is born, and I can not image facing my lovers’ death as well. The only thing we can do is feed ourselves stronger, make us enough strong to face the departure.
